Alabama excitment

Here i am in alabama! :D

this is the state that my father was born! Talk about exciting.

THIS is such a cute place. Everyone here sais "hey ya'll" whenever you walk by.

It doesnt even matter if they know you or not!  They smile and wave like they've know you all your life. To them its just normal :D

talk about country lovin ;)

utter boredom

you know that feeling you get when your talking?

the one that makes you feel as if all you are saying is being pushed through ONE ear, and then right OUT the other.

As if what you say doesn't matter at all?

WELL! viewers of my so populated blog...

i feel like when i write no one listens (reads)

like all the little letters jumbled together are being thrown out into the abyss.

which kinda reminds me of a black hole :O

In a way its ok... since i know alot of the people who read my blog, they might get irritated if i write somthing they dont like :p

blah

i know that no one should care what others think or say

BUUT if you do say somthing that could be taken as somthing extremely rude...

the friends might then speak to you after, and tell you your rude.

haha wow

i dont blame you for not reading this blog :D i guess.

i mean i dont really have ALOT of crazy awesome things to talk about.

insteaaad!

hmm

wait

no

i

got

nothing!

lol wow i have no life at all.

but! as soon as i do have something actually interesting to write about i will post it!

and maybe... put it on FB.

but who knows. i might be 50 by the time my creative juices come back alive!!!

uuuuuh JUST KIDDING!

50 is way to old..

way way way. the juices will come before then :D

hah ok! im done!

byyye

change

NOW!

i have a laptop :O can you people believe it?

i have a;ways wanted my own laptop. AND NOW

i actually have one. I meen, i knew this day was coming

i knew eventually, i would have it!

anyways... enough with the total AWESOMNESS of a Toshiba Portege (which is the laptop i have)

lets talk about summer

SUMMER! is like... almost over O.O

in 2 months i leave for college

which is insane :P

i meen.. im excited about college

but its all the people im gonna be missing when i leave.

yeah yeah yeah

i know. everyone sais that i will get over missing everyone and everything, that there are more important things to look forward too.

its just... dont like the idea of growing apart from everthing and everyone i love.

still ,though, maybe the 'older' more 'mature' people haha who told me it will all work out

are right

well... i meen of course they are right! i will grow to love everyone at college.

which i AM looking forward too. I am definantly looking forward to studying speech ed. (which is my major!!!! eeeeeep)

BUT! 

i am not looking forward... to growing apart from people

but...

again. i guess thats all a little part in growing up

experiencing new things

O.O that this isnt highschool anymore. 

oh well.

i will get used to all this change eventually.

im not a change lovin girl though O.O

plans, drama, money

Shopping, Work, thinking about the future!

ya know- when you are little ALL you ever think about it growing up :)

You couldnt wait till you were tall and married! haha

now.. you wish that you could still have time as a kid.

June 8th was my birthday! and now i am NO longer a kid.

i am an Adult.

crazy i know!

highschool flew by. going threw it felt slow... but now its obviouse that life does go in a BLINK

College

is just around the corner!

and my future is slowly turning into my present.

Right now all i can think about... is

AM I GONNA MAKE IT ON MY OWN?

like..

will i make it in college?

will i succeed in my dream?

will i meet 'the one' (haha)

but most of all

will i rely on God like i should?

lately

devotions have been few :/

i need to make more time for them! ugh

i just get so caught up with everything else!

also im a bit sressed about some things :P

but... if i would STOP BEING LAZY! and if i would DO MY DEVOS

maybe

juuust maybe

i wouldnt feels so stressed and overwhelmed.

GRACIOUS

when we were kids things were NOT so complicated.

the amount of 'complicated' things that went through our tiny little brains were

"hmmmm i wonder how far i can dig in the ground at recess"

or

"I have a blister on my hand... ow"

children... so funny O.O

seriously you dont understand how easy you have it until

BOOM!

you have to take care of yourself

plans plans plans

drama drama drama

MONEY MONEY MONEY

unfortuantly

the green papers that have pics of dead men all over them

are quite inportant. -.-

WOW.

anyways guys, im sorry.

everything on here was very random and slightly ODD

but if you laughed at all.

or maybe were a bit intriged by what i said

then.. i feel a bit accomplished with myself.

maybe

ish...

ANYWAYs

im done typing.

BYE ALL!

pretty amazing...

ahahaha!

i spent time with my AMAZING friend kelce yesterday.

it was so fun!

omw.

let me give you the run-down on how the day went...

FIRST: starbucks- THEN cell phone *falling* into the coffee

SECOND: jumping in puddles outside of Starbucks :D then haveing some random dude make fun of you. ( he was just a grump )           

THIRD: pie filling :O barf

FOURTH: we took some amazing photos at this HUGE field!!!!! then somemore photos climbing this huge pink tree

FIFTH: makeing this cherry filled 'thingy magiggy' then haveing kelce DROP it on the floor, ALSO the cherrys burning and makeing the entire house foggy

O.O

it was so fun.

then after that mess (2 o'clock in the morning)

we stayed up later :o talking :O

  CRAAAAZAY stuff :D

it was so fun...

im just so tired right now

SO

MY BAND

GOT

FIRST PLACE!

can you believe it?!

thats another reason im tired.

we have worked so hard for band competition.. and now thats its over

im exhausted!

:D

dissapointed.. in myself

RESPECT.

you know, respect is the hardest thing to give, if

YOU in turn, don't feel respect yourself.

some people

for example,

'expect respect'!

but they themselves don't respect YOU!

ugh how am i supposed to give you my full respect if YOU don't respect me?

at least Little.

NOW

I'm not saying that a teacher 'needs' to respect you as an equal to them

because, students, you are not equals to your teachers

they are YOUR authority.

the only type of respect i wish teachers could give, is respect as a student

do you have ANY IDEA how it feels when your

OWN TEACHER

makes fun of you?

how it feels when they degrade you and make you feel dumb?

its the worst feeling ever. almost even worse than have a

friend

degrade you.

teachers,

they are your students. they respect you as the authority...

cant you respect them as a student? or maybe

just as a person?

okay so maybe they aren't

the brightest bulb in the box.

ya don't have to point out the faults they have, or the problems, in front of the entire class.

PRIDE.

after you degrade them, the self confidence they ever had

was now demolished by your

ONE COMMENT

they felt flushed down the toilet.

now, i guess if they are disrespecting you, YES discipline them!

but why must you turn and make them feel stupid?

or PULL something important away from them?

discipline is NOT making sure they feel like a SQUASHED BUG.

they kinda look up to you.

you are the authority, and the older person in the room

they listen and might actually care.

you want there respect.. actually NO

you demand their respect.

how can YOU demand respect, if YOU arnt willing to respect anyone YOURSELF?

mister,

you were the one who told me to break rules once.

now

when i don't follow a rule

and your in a bad mood

OR JUST PLANE MAD AT ME

i am disciplined

i look up to you.

and now

I'm being slapped in the face.

I'm sorry i broke the rules

i understand your discipline

I DESERVED IT!

but...

this rule breaking thing isn't the only thing you've done to

disappointed me..

you don't care?

well i had to get it off my chest.

I'm sorry conquerors.

written to: FBS soccer team.



Why did you tell the secret

First off, if you don't want people to know something. don't tell them!

even if they press you for the answer. be quiet. DON'T SPEAK!

-.-

yes yes, i know ALL of us try to push our friends into telling them something

BUT

if its actually important. or PRIVATE

why cant you just be quiet?

there is a time to speak and a time to be quiet. 

today dear, was that day.

you could have been quiet. but no. it was imposable for you to be!

something 'new' has happened. and the first friend you see

YOU JUST HAVE TO TELL!

or else... you might actually burst.

wouldn't that be terrible?

no.

especially when you figure, everyone is going to find out anyways

blah blah blah

WELL they didn't have to find out NOW!

cause the person you were keeping the secret for

is now in DEEP DOO DOO

are you reading my lips?

doo doo.

its what happens when someone just 'betrayed' them. AKA told a secret

ugh

yes its dramatic and stupid

but secrets are toxic between friends

if your BFF

sais to shush up for a bit

SHUSH!

i know its so HARD and i just don't understand the PAIN you might be going through

let me tell you

OFF ALL THE PEOPLE ON THIS GREEN EARTH

me. Deborah.

has a serious secret keeping problem

BUT at least when its something actually important.

or something that is personal/ private

i try to be quiet

let the thing work out on its own

most the time if YOU tell someones secret. they don't talk to you anymore.

btw, before i go

the person you probably told didn't really need to know, or actually

DIDN'T CARE.

so again.

i ask my question

why did you tell them?

no no no

why did you tell me?

maybe i don't care

maybe i didn't want to know

MAYBE

just maybe!

i didn't need to know.

ever thought of that?

'no...'

written to me.

and etc...